Peer Pressure

Always thought the expression was rather pathetic. More conventionally, Facebook, smoking, sex and poor grammar are when it manifests itself in a rather ugly fashion. Alas, now I have experienced this (until recently) alien concept - Peer Pressure.

I fear in future, this Blog will totally destroy any hard-face, foot stamping, dungaree wearing persona I may have built around myself. Never mind, 2011 is the newest of new starts. I have accepted growing old, but certainly not growing up. I believe I will always be naive, and pretending that I am not, is not an option. As such, the child in me feels it is about time I do something conventional, and fall victim to Peer Pressure.

Why, in which case, have I not felt like this before? Why does it feel more constructive, letting in advice that dictates I bare my thoughts and feelings on the Internet where, inevitably, I am opening up to people online who I would never attempt to in person?

This summer, I left a relationship that had lasted for (nearly) three happy years. The final weeks were messy, and taught me an awful lot about myself. 1. I am selfish. Doing things for other people at genuine personal expense and humility is what kicks karma into gear, not just buying a Big Issue. 2. I lack self-motivation. Self-pity is not an attractive trait, and I will now endeavour to do something of significance every single day I live. Not one more day will be spent in my room watching shite television programmes. I will have goals, and do things to get myself there. 3. I make excuses. I will make better excuses/more convincing ones. 4. I am far more needy than I care to imagine I am. I will ask my friends for cuddles as/when I need them.
 Many more lessons learnt, far too many to mention. With my newfound speck of cyberspace, I can write about them whenever I like.


So in conclusion, in the past, I have been applying so much pressure on myself my peers haven't had a look-in. The predominant lesson learnt is that other people (sometimes) know better. And actioning their advice as opposed to merely acknowledging it can shape me into a better person, faster.

One blog closer to self-actualisation.